The Way Things Are

As of right now, suicide has been canceled. I’ve simply lost my resolve. I’m no longer certain that’s what I want, and unless I’m sure, I can’t go through with it. I just have to take this one day, one moment, one second at a time. Things are not awful right now, though recent events have backed me into a corner, I simply have to deal with it.
I flushed the soma down the toilet.
Although it wouldn’t take many of my lithium to do the job, it seems an uncomfortable way to go. I’m too much of a pussy for that.
I would like to thank a special new friend on WordPress for getting me through yesterday, and my good friend Matt for being so tolerant of my temporary insanity last night, and providing me with a change of scenery. I am very thankful for the people in my life.
So, that’s all. Just a quick update. Life goes on. . .

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4 responses to “The Way Things Are

  1. I don’t think you’re giving yourself enough credit – you did that, you changed what you were going to do, you were strong and fought back against the bad thoughts in your head – that shows strength, a lot of it. Keep on fighting, you won’t feel like this forever, remain strong and you can get through this if you can pull yourself out of that, amazing.

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