I’m worried–extremely worried–about my cat, Mintkey. It started on Saturday. She slept all day. That evening I noticed that her back legs weren’t working to their full potential. She was unable to jump onto the bar, and had to climb onto a cushion only a foot off the ground.
I was alarmed. It was the weekend. There aren’t many emergency vets in this little ass-crack of the world.
Monday, she seemed to finally start to feel better, but I decided to take her anyway. Her hind legs still didn’t seem steady. She felt hot and all through Sunday, she was so weak she could barely meow. My usual choice for common ailments is a very old fashioned farm vet. He’s cheap. For Mintkey I decided to take her to a Dr. Freeman instead. More expensive, but more professional; more thorough.
Mintkey’s temperature was 105. Three degrees above the feline norm. Because Dr. Freeman couldn’t come to any decisive conclusion, he referred me to an even more expensive veterinarian: Dr. Johnson. This Dr. J has all the laboratory equipment necessary to run thousands of dollars worth of tests. I didn’t care what it cost. I had a little over a hundred bucks on me, which would have been more than enough to cover our visit with Dr. Freeman.
The first thing Dr. J did was run a test for Feline Leukemia, Feline Aids, and heart worms. All came back negative. He proceeded to give her a hefty dose of Frontline and dewormer. He had some concerns that a tick might be causing her ailments. I expressed my concerns about the new flea medicine after an earlier application of the generic stuff. He sternly replied that she would die if something wasn’t done to help her. I already knew that, but this man was serious.
(I hear he doesn’t eat lunch at the office over fears of ingesting animal hair. He won’t eat any goodies brought by clients either.)
He finished her off with a shot of antibiotic, something to bring down her fever, and a bottle of amoxicillin to be administered twice daily.
All in all, my total came to $190 bucks. That’s okay. She’s worth it. I paid what I had on me, and I’ll be returning today to cover the remaining eighty dollars.
His main concern for her was something called Feline Infectious Peritonitis. Infectious–not contagious. It’s always fatal. If the antibiotics don’t do the trick, or she doesn’t somehow get over this any other way, FIP is the most likely culprit. I fucking hate it.
I’ve been extremely torn up over this. I can function, but I can’t get the fear out of my mind. Mintkey and I have grown extremely close. She’s always by my side, no matter what I’m doing–always begging to be pet and loved, and I’m always happy to oblige. She sits on the bar next to my computer as I type this.
The good news is, she seems much better today. She’s able to jump onto the bar. She’s eating and playing again, although her back legs still don’t seem quite right. Nevertheless, they have improved. I hope they stay that way.
Life just comes at me too fast. Just over a month ago I was in the mental hospital, for fuck’s sake.
I’m just tired. It matters not how much well-being you can hold inside; the world inevitably breaks it. Always learning these fucked up life lessons. Why? What’s the point? I believe there is one, but I can’t see it.
Please, just send good thoughts to my little one, who suddenly decides to stand on the keyboard.
–Some Kind of Something